Feeling Alone & Being Motivated

Lost: unable to find one’s way; not knowing one’s whereabouts.

Alone: having no one else present; on one’s own. Without others’ help or participation; single-handed.

Any loss is a form of death. The essence of something is now absent. Maybe a friendship ended or your dog ran away. Maybe you lost your job. Maybe your relationship ended. Maybe someone close to you actually passed away. The identity with this thing leaves us stuck and alone. Wandering and deserted.

The man/woman you once or still love, is now walking alongside someone else. Someone else was hired in your old job. Your best friend has a new best friend.

As these things depart- you remain. Unloved. Feeling sustained inside your vacuum of emptiness. Through the death of these things you become lethargic and confused. The promiscuity of sorrow continues breeding further emotional torment. The byproduct of your devastation creates a missing self-identity that once brought you comfort.

The people you want or wanted in your life are simultaneously having their own life experience. Their concurrent experience simply intersects with yours for a time.  A seasonal conjunction. Everything is temporary and short-lived. Experiences must all come and go. To have died, something must have once lived.

A need for things is simply your own false perception.  Remove the blindfold of loneliness. You believe or feel entitled to believe, the act of desiring these things dictates their presence in your life.

Unknowingly, this confusion and isolation has always been present. Did you evolve in your mother’s womb with someone else? (To the antagonist, even twins are separate beings) Is anyone else experiencing your dreams? Can anyone beyond yourself feel the hot stove your hand rests on?

Alone. You have always been alone. You will always be alone. You have always been experiencing this so called life by yourself.

Those that cannot withstand the smoke, cannot withstand the day you set fire. Let them die. 

In the midst of your forfeiture, be cognizant that these inhabilitating emotions were handpicked. Chosen and selected by of course. . . none other than. .  .You!

Embrace your emptiness. Not being filled with these things; your vacant heart is symbolic for acceptance and peace. Let this revelation guide you to the comprehension of a new reality and restored life. You and your Creator- that relationship is sufficient.

*Don’t you know that you yourselves are God’s temple and that God’s Spirit dwells in your midst? – 1 Corinthians 3:16 

*But Jesus often withdrew to lonely places and prayed. LUKE 5:16 AMP 



An inspiring message from my loving mother:





Where you choose to look will determine how you live.

Having an eternal perspective as your priority will affect your choices and decisions entirely. It will also affect how attached you feel to the things of this world.

Its’ disappointments will no longer feel so crushing. Its’ fears will no longer feel so frightful. Its’ goals will no longer appear so alluring. Because you will have the focus to see what they really are, in light of eternity.


Living Life With Purpose- Imagine Today

I want you to do something. No, actually that isn’t true- You need You to do something. I must warn you that this may be very difficult and uncomfortable. You need to sit back for a moment and close your eyes for 15 to 30 seconds. . .

Vividly imagine with all of your might and with extreme detail: Your mother, father, husband, wife, or even one of your own children would be gone tomorrow. Perhaps you can imagine there are only 48 hours left of your own life.

Are you finished? . . Let’s go deeper into this. Can either of you die today with no regrets?

Now you should feel it. This moment now. . . Yes, this is it! This state of singularity is truly real. Unexpected and unwarranted you suddenly become awake!!!

By the virtue of death, loss, and mortality something magical unfolds; truth and purpose. Losing a loved one makes the world stop spinning: What your friends are doing doesn’t matter- the post someone liked on Facebook is irrelevant- rude cashier at the store is forgotten- the rude text message you read earlier is mentally deleted.

Your perception of meaningless things, thoughts, habits, and even people abruptly fashion to a diminished essence. The illusion of control quickly subdues. Stress and anxiety no longer dangle beyond the bounds of your spirit. This ‘quantum-emotional chaos’ creates new emotions – eradicating others.

As a result of your destitution, your unconditional closeness seems as if it was snatched out of your grasp.  Isolation and desertion reside where comfort and compassion once lived. Your life is reformed through the disappearance of value, compassion, morality, and love. People you trusted most begin to expose their agendas throughout the duration of your squandering.  In search of your foes, you begin losing friends. The depletion of the life you once knew, or foolishly thought existed, shapes into something real. Alleged loyalist suddenly modify their commitment. The trace of their stench creates more emotional disruption. A filthy residue of anger, pain, and resentment is left behind.

Not all is lost. Maneuvering through the complexity of the world becomes simple. Through the solitude and abandonment your mind suddenly undergoes metamorphism. The illumination of truth begins to craft confidence and capability in your heart. Clarity becomes a stepping stone towards an unmistakable purpose. Now you can see what has been holding you back. The phantasm of loyalty and expectations fade to black.

The REAL YOU starts to come back to life! In an attempt to impetuously move forward, you are gifted with wisdom. Performance and accomplishment begins to reach heightened levels. The fucks you previously gave hit an all-time low.

Now you understand love deeper than before. Now you confide in skepticism. Your gut becomes your guide. Loyalty is no longer a free badge neglectfully worn by friends and family.  The declaration of devoted allies was previously accepted on good faith. Adversaries no longer assail in darkness with forged affection.

The opening of your eyes is never a guarantee. Tomorrow is not promised to anyone; therefore, make changes today. Do not make the mistake of speculating opportunities or even people will be there tomorrow.

Every moment you take a breath- you’re a moment closer. Remove anything that does not enhance your life experience. Love every second and live everyday like you are dying tomorrow. 


What are you looking for?!?!?

  • If I could just get her/him to do this- then I would be that.
  • If I could just make a few more dollars- then I would be able to do this.
  • If I could just. . .

Everything you need you were born with. Conjectures of inadequacy stream throughout your experience. This moment right now . . . conceptualize that inefficiency is not part of your existence.

The world will convince you that you are lacking something. Do not believe the worlds bulls***.

Nothing outside of you will eliminate your deficiency. You are it!


Cancer is one of the leading causes of death. Extensive surgery and endless amounts of medication are necessary to extend life:
People can become cancerous in our lives. When people want to walk out of your life…Let them walk. Sometimes you must surgically remove them.
They are draining you; inhibiting  your life experience.  They are bloodthirsty. Hidden agendas and false promises of support will spread through you. Erasing the identity once known as peace and self worth.
These cancers were never part of your team. Their counterfeit applause and simulated compassion is not required. As they fade into the distance you can continue moving forward.
Don’t stop and turn around! . . . or you will lose sight of where you are headed. 


“I have seen all the things that are done under the sun; all of them are meaningless, a chasing after the wind.”– ECCLESIASTES 1:14 NIV

“A U-Haul doesn’t follow a hearse.”

Cars, homes, clothes, stocks, money & other forms of meaningless materials provide us with temporary pleasure. Tiny hits of dopamine camouflage our emotional inadequacies. The thirst of your desires persist and the quench remains unsatisfied.

The identity of success has become bound and enslaved to materials.



The dark journey to the mysterious path is behind every turn. That glorious shadow lurks in the corner of the room at all times. Only ignorance breeds the idea of potential escape. The thing we all fear the most is coming; the unknown.
Your life will be snatched away. Everyone you leave behind will feel robbed and empty. They can only find comfort in your achievements and memoirs. What are you accomplishing right now?
What did you do with this time? 
Did you spend it dispensing ‘likes’ and writing gratifying yet empty comments to your friends? Did you spend these years laboring for a company? Was your time spent ensuring another man’s organization broke stock ticker records? Did you help anyone? Did you encourage people?
Death will inadvertently become an advantage. You will finally know the true members of your tribe. Time is no longer wasted on the alleged affiliates. Complaints no longer reside within your disposition and your ego-  downsized to nonexistence.
Give yourself a reality check.
What did you do? What are you doing? Where are you going?